Chapter 2: "5:12 AM, 12-14-12"

"Teach me good judgment and knowledge, for I believe in your commandments. Before I was afflicted I went astray, but now I keep your word." Psalm 119:66-67

This morning at 5:12 AM on Friday, December 14th 2012 will be the moment I never forget for the rest of my life. Lately I've been suffering from severe depression while being up here in Seminary school in Atlanta, GA and have for a while been lacking in the spirit. Though the Lord has been blessing with amazing opportunities relationship and job opportunity wise, I still have been lacking the most important thing in my life, and that is the "JOY" of Having Jesus Christ in my life. I AM FREE because of His merciful compassion, yet I still fall into constant Sin over and over again. I'm afraid of seeking His face, because of how wretched I've been lately with selfishness and falling into constant temptation, yet HE WHO DISCIPLINES US BECAUSE HE LOVES US sends me John 20:23 and John 5:39 because He wants me to repent from the wrongful way I've been living.

It's beautiful when He sent to me Psalm 119:66-67 after these convicting words because it takes a "stab in the heart" to really pierce us and show us true conviction of "HOW WRETCHED" we really are. Yet it was during this "BLESSED" month that God fulfilled "HIS PROMISE" from Isaiah 9:6-7

"For to us a child is born, to us va son is given; and the government shall be upon his shoulder, and his name shall be called Wonderful yCounselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace. Of the increase of his government and of peace there will be no end, on the throne of David and over his kingdom, to establish it and to uphold it
with justice and with righteousness from this time forth and forevermore."

Today, the Spirit has asked of me to live my life freely now in Christ, and to no longer live like the pharisees, but to experience fully in the joy HE had made for us since we were born from the womb. I ask of you today, when you seek the words of Psalm 119:66-67...."Do you truly believe in His commandments and promise for your life?"

May the words of my mouth, and the meditations of my heart be pleasing in your sight my almighty King!